ONE from the Rest

Trees: standing : mesmerized : awed
Thinking:of life: of a lost one :
a dead Tree: with no one close to it:
Encircled in awe: in confusion:
Withe 10 hundred greens: all 'round it: standing
One:white:pale:life-less:lying:lone

Time to start my own trip
I've packed for 15 years now
I can't hold anymore
Willing, accepting, no: perhaps wanting to let go
Here I am: on the road: on my own

Still afraid: still a child: losing innocence
Learning : living : teething : breathing
Moving : choosing : loosing : soothing
Trying : crying : frying : lying : sighing : dying 
Standing:craving:anticipating:hesitating
Failing : failing : failing
Getting : Taking : breaking : hiding in shame
searching:looking:thinking:slow traffic in my brain
Trying to rhyme ::: LAME!
STOP!
(what am i doing?)

50 billion mount Rushmore's on the side of the road
Can't everyone get their face carved out?
I am searching for mine: thinking it's already there
or am I looking for a nice spot for it?

Constantly thinking comes easy to me?!?!
Observing basic things around lets me
symbolize anything into something it's not
Having an eye for details:strictly things that will support
or completely annihilate my theories helps. 


I never look for something specific
And find that just looking for something is easy,
enjoyable, and rewarding enough.
ENOUGH!
(of my tasteless, plain, gibberish).

Wooden fences; fences out of logs:: protecting the FORREST?
pathetic .. ironic .. idiotic .. careless and pointless
... or is it just human?

"it's only human" - now here's a joke !
That's EXTREMELY human .. almost playing dumb.
Denial: that's what it is; "Denial ain't no river"

 .... excuse me: I'm trying too hard to make sense

Starting to rain: blobs splatter on the windshield
I'll write more on this later!

secrets: why? secrets are things we shield ourselves from
The consequences of our actions: or someone else's : a self defense mechanism

Advice: likely to be something you'd never do, but wish you would/had.

Who are we? Mankind? WOMAN Kind! our fathers should..
be given enough credit to the 1 sperm that made it,
while our mothers reward us with months of shelter!

Lurking in the improbable forest,
covered by fog, by greens, by shadow
Protected by our own eyes that look the other way 
The glossy blackness * *  deep and concentrated
One would lose themselves, amongst it.
The crows are summoning our omens
Speak of our dooms, debate the end
How *is* it going to end?
Asking when would be pointless, as no one would listen
nor answer, nor remember, nor believe, or trust.


! SETI: Search for ExtraTerrestrial Intelligence
We're so corrupt, that we want to corrupt other worlds
Besides, it's hard enough trying to find any intelligence amongst our species
Plenty of negligence tho.


Thus my babysteps toward comprehension, appreciation, and knowledge of life continue...

					- Paul Ivanov (Author)
Last Revised Sept. 19th, 1999
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